#<- my sadeas amaram tag

[isdalinarhot]

amaram is hilarious in my headcanon world because like. imagine youve been in a toxic ancient greece style gay fuckbuddy situation with a man about 15 years older than you for the last... since you were about 17-19. you're in your mid 30s now, youve been getting weird with it the whole time youve known him, while youve had disappointments in the world of trying to get laid woman wise you could always fall back on your toxic mentor-top who gives 0 emotional fucks about you or your wellbeing if you wanted to have Some sex of Some kind. and then your toxic mentor-top dies and his wife goes you know what you are retroactively me and his son. im your mom now. and all of a sudden your already #Toxic #FuckedUp #DeadDoveDoNotEat years long situationship has a layer of pseudo incest on top of it. but its ok because now you rule the sadeas princedom. you are meridas amaram.

[adolins-heart]

hi uh. This exists???

I posted 2,150 times in 2021

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For every post I created, I reblogged 3.5 posts.

I added 654 tags in 2021

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#it’s easy for them when they have sadeas or amaram or illai to point to as ‘we’re not like them’ but those characters are steadily disappear

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

I still can’t get over the fact that Sazed is a god y’all

82 notes • Posted 2021-01-31 20:15:23 GMT

#4

No one:

Me: That one. That’s my favorite.

*enter the well meaning royal man in a Sanderson book*

93 notes • Posted 2021-02-10 13:38:04 GMT

#3

I’m not really in the PJO fandom anymore but it really irks me that Will Solace gets treated like some bubbly over dramatic ray of sunshine when he’s,,, he’s a doctor. He can be laidback and stuff but he’s also a doctor who has been leading the Apollo cabin and served as head medic for CHB during a fricking war.

Like guys. How do y’all screw up his personality so bad? There’s so much more to him that people just miss bc they want their grumpy emo boi Nico and uwu sun cheerful boi Will. When both of them are so much more than that, so much more dynamic than that.

97 notes • Posted 2021-02-16 23:22:17 GMT

#2

Me: *telling my bf abt my favorite characters in sandersons books, the well meaning royal men*

My Boyfriend: Ah yes. Your himbo boyfriends.

153 notes • Posted 2021-01-13 20:30:08 GMT

#1

Being in the Cosmere fandom means seeing the same post several dozen times, and at least one of those rbs of the post is yourself

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[mxlxdroit]

i finished oathbringer!

yay! *confetti*

i can now unblock the oathbringer tag! woohoo!

it took me a month and a half to finish this book, all 1200-odd pages of it, and unfortunately, i’ve gotten a bit of book exhaustion. i enjoyed reading it, but it’s like reading a long trilogy of books in a very short amount of time, so i’m probably going to wait a while before tackling another cosmere book so i can get a breather and read some other stuff.

first off, i liked this book a lot! so much happened i’m not gonna go back and recap too many specific points right now, but there are a few things that i think were particularly important.

TL;DR oathbringer was good and had a lot of cute and funny stuff but it dragged a bit and got a bit too heavy for me a few times. i’m now shakadolin trash, Dalinar’s like fifty and he finally storming learned how to read, Lopen and his spren flipped off the Stormfather, and there are lots of good messages about agency and responsibility. oh, and lots of people stabbing each other

thematically, a lot of oathbringer is about choosing to take responsibility for your actions (or not. looking at you, Moash). this is most clear in Dalinar’s case, as his main character development is confronting the evil he did in his past, including killing his wife and burning thousands of people to death along with her. he has to admit what he did and take responsibility for it within himself in order to be able to resist Odium (speaking of which, What Is Up with Cultivation? i feel like i know so little about her. since Honor and Odium have spren and surges and all that jazz does Cultivation have them, too? D: i don’t know). Adolin has to admit to killing Sadeas, Venli has to realize that bringing back the Fused was a bad call, and the entire human race have to figure out what to do when they learn that they are the Voidbringers and invaded Roshar (i’m sure this is going to be a prominent theme in Stormlight 4, because it’s a huge deal and they barely talked about it). Not only do the characters have to confront their pasts and the truths there, however unpleasant, they have to decide what to do next. the story doesn’t end with a big reveal. life goes on, and they have to decide what steps to take and what future they want. the most important step a person can take is the next, if you will. in many ways, that is what the Ideals of the Radiants are for- life sucks, so what are you going to do to make it a little less terrible? and therein lies the connection between responsibility and agency. Moash’s internal dialogue about how nothing he regrets is his fault also means that none of the good things he’ve done belong to him. he gives up ownership over his life and himself and gives away his agency. he won’t be able to make meaningful decisions about his own life because he doesn’t want to anymore. Dalinar, on the other hand, accepts all of his past as his, including the good he has done, accepting his own agency over his actions and allowing himself to use his experiences to inform his decisions in the future.

on a kind of related point, honesty also leads to forgiveness. Shallan has to forgive herself for things that weren’t her fault and find a way to acknowledge the horrors of her past without letting them consume her. she isn’t all the way there- i don’t know if she’ll ever be able to be fully comfortable in herself, but i don’t doubt that she is going to continue getting better throughout the rest of the series. Kaladin has to forgive himself for not being able to save everyone, though he’s been figuring that out since book one, so it wasn’t a big part of his story in oathbringer. Teft comes to a kind of reconciliation with himself and is able to let himself start moving forward.

overall, it’s a “forgive, but don’t forget” kind of thing. don’t deny the bad stuff you’ve done or that has been done to you, don’t blind yourself to the truth, and act accordingly, but also don’t let your past hold you back or decide that you aren’t worthy of becoming a better person. it’s some important stuff

smaller-stuff-wise, uhhhhhhhh

-the scene in hearthstone was adorable i love Kaladin’s family and Kaladin being happy and getting to see his baby brother it was such a sweet part of the book

-Dalinar and Navani had the most dramatic wedding imaginable. they’re Kholins

-Shallan and Adolin! i’m so happy with how sanderson handled their whole pseudo-love-triangle thing (although this book turned me into shameless shakadolin trash (everyone has a crush on kaladin stormblessed 2kOathbringer) so that’s a thing and also since Veil isn’t gone i don’t think Shallan’s whole ‘wow Kaladin’s hot’ thing is gonna be totally gone) and their wedding was sweet

-Elhokar. wow. i didn’t see that one coming AT ALL and it’s really sad! i’m glad Gavinor’s okay though. a+++++ job to Skar and Drehy and Shallan’s guardsmen for remembering to keep him safe

-i love Wit. he’s fantastic. he’s obviously kind of an asshole but some of his scenes (the ones with Shallan and the epilogue) show that he can be very kind “Sadeas counts twice” yep pretty much. also we got two new names for him? and he bonded a Cryptic. this man

-Lopen flipping the Stormfather off... perfect

-Shallan recreating an entire play that she saw as a child... and doing it again later... i could imagine it so vividly and it was beautiful

-Kaladin’s suffering is just... never going to end. branderson just enjoys making him sad all the time and i resent that because he’s my favorite character in SA

-Venli is going to save the listeners and i’m so ready for it. it’s going to be a long, tough journey but i believe in her she’s so strong

-hmmmmmm interesting that branderson was like “HERE’S A GAY CHARACTER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH” when a bunch of his characters are written (even if it’s an accident) to be Bisexual(tm)/Polysexual(tm)

-Lift and Szeth are a good team. i’m gonna draw him ice-skating at some point

-Adolin, Kaladin, AND Jasnah insulting Amaram... good... also Jasnah marrying Amaram is a terrible thought. both of them would be miserable even if Amaram wasn’t openly working for Odium. also is Jasnah supposed to be under the ace/aro umbrella or is she allo but not interested?

-people have been calling Jasnah a queen for ages and now look at what happened! long live queen Jasnah she is one of the most qualified leaders alethkar has ever had or will ever have

-i like Nightblood a lot. wanna destroy some evil today?

-Kaladin picking up a rock at the end of the battle :’)

-Rock firing a shardbow was surprising. i found the parts he narrated interesting because he knows a lot more than he lets on. i’m excited to see more from him in SA 4

-some of the heralds still think ishar is sane but he is NOT

-Moash straight-up stabbed a Herald! he takes the cake from Kelsier. punching gods is no longer enough

-sanderson is making Kaladin’s depression more explicit and i think he’s doing a good job. knowing that his parents are alive and safe helps, and being around people he loves helps, and having a purpose and path in life is really important for him, but his depression is still there, just like Teft’s addiction is still there, and Dalinar’s tendency towards alcoholism is still there, and Shallan’s tendency to repress trauma is still there. he still gets depressed during the Weepings and when he is forced to question the ideals that he has chosen to follow, and that’s very realistic, which is good

-DALINAR IS LEARNING TO READ! FINALLY

-and generally gender roles getting smashed is good. Lyn and Malata and Shallan and Jasnah and the other female Windrunner scouts all fighting and Dalinar learning to read and even little things like sanderson letting Kaladin cry over his baby brother were wonderful to read

-also everyone’s gotta stop making fun of Renarin for being a scholar and start paying attention to stuff instead

-Evi. Evi. Evi.

-Adolin and Shallan being the PDA couple of this series and disturbing the Good Alethis around them

my main criticism of oathbringer overall is that it was really heavy compared to the rest of the stormlight archive. the battle scenes were REALLY LONG and full of lots of main characters getting stabbed, and the philosophical weight of the decisions they all have to make is just getting heavier and heavier. there are definitely funny moments, especially in bridge four sections and a lot of the character interactions in non-conflict scenes. and every bird being a chicken. and the boots thing. how many pairs has kaladin lost now? anyways, almost every scene felt like it existed to serve a specific purpose and move the plot along, which is part of why i got book fatigue. there weren’t enough breathers, which usually isn’t an issue in sanderson’s pacing, so i’d assume that it won’t be a big issue going forwards? maybe it’s just me trying to leach as much meaning from every sentence as i can and if i just relaxed and enjoyed the book then it wouldn’t be so exhausting

also, this post (btw thanks op that’s a great summary) says that the stormlight archive (and i think by extension the cosmere as a whole) is anti-grimdark. while i mostly agree, i think some of the moral relativism and “you’ve been accidentally evil the entire time!”s in oathbringer have leaned it a little more towards (sometimes gratuitous (looking at u, mr. stormblessed, u, ms. lightweaver, and in this book, especially u, mr. dad kholin)) angst, which is another reason for the book fatigue. it’s not unnecessary, and it leads to character and plot development, but it got to be too much for me sometimes. then again, i’m a teenager and these books are written for adults, so maybe that’s a factor- moral relativism might be hitting a bit too close to home for me

ANYWAYS! i’ll probably write some more, smaller posts about OB but this is what i have for now! cfsbf, y’all

[captainkaladinstormblessed]

I was tagged by @estradahernandez thank you kennedy i love oversharing with strangers on the internet <3

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the first character you loved

- Bones

- Luke Skywalker

- Kaladin

the character you never expected to love so much

- Sulu

- Bodhi

- Dalinar

the character you relate to most

- Scotty, engineering and yelling and stressing a lot is who i am as a person

- Poe, because I, too, make hearteyes at Finn whenever i see him

- Lieutenant “I ain’t grouchy, I just have a low threshold for stupidity” *will follow Kaladin into the jaws of death* Teft

the character you’d slap

- Q. ive never seen an episode with Q but he seems like a pain in the ass

- Kyle fuck damn Ron

- FuckDamn Amaram and Sadeas, before chopping off extremities piece by piece with a blunt knife

three favorite characters (in order of preference)

- Bones, Sulu, Chekov

- Finn, Bodhi, Poe, Leia

- Kaladin, Dalinar, Rock

a character you liked at first but don’t anymore

- none???

- yoda can suck a cactus and die

- moash.....i havent finished book 2 yet but i dont trust him

a character you didn’t like at first but now do

- Kirk

- Boba Fett

- Shallan

three otps

- spock/kirk, spock/bones, bones/kirk

- finnpoe, bodhicassian, bazechirrut

- [keeping in mind i have not finished book 2] [and that i dont really ship anyone but off the top of my head] kaladin/happiness, kaladin/adolin, shallan/[a girl] she is a lesbian brandon. braNDON LISTEN. BRANDON SHE LOVES GIRLS

[esseastri]

Megan Reads Oathbringer (part 1)

Me: okay but I don’t remember the back half of WoR, I should really, really finish the reread before starting... Also me: okay, buuuuuuuuuuut................what if I just..............start

[insert evilkermit.jpeg here]

There are a few relevant points of information:

Tags: Megan reads OB and Oathbringer spoilers. (I’ll also have housekeepers on there, like Brandon Sanderson, Stormlight Archive, and Oathbringer, but those first two are the important ones.)

Everything will be under a readmore.

Above the readmore will be the page numbers covered in that liveblog, so you’ll know how far I’ve gotten (and that way, if you’ve read that far you’ll be okay to read the lb).

There's…going to be a lot of swearing? I have learned that I have no control over my language when I get overly emotional and I feel like I’m going to spend a lot of this book overly emotional. I would like to apologize in advance, and while I promise to try to keep my swearing to a minimum, there might be more than a few bad words.

Shameless self-promotion for the previous two liveblogs: WoK and WoR.

I’m pretty sure that’s all the important bits. Enjoy!!

Part One encompasses pages 1-90 (subsequent parts)

*screams quietly into the ether forever*

PROLOGUE

hoooolly shiiiiiiiittt: Eshonai

Please tell me this means we’ll finally learn why the Parshendi killed Gavilar.......

SHE’S SO EXCITED I’M SO SAD I hate knowing what’s happened to her

...the Parshendi...didn’t know about the parshmen? what? the heck?

I’m....baby Esh is so excitable and curious and I.. love her. and I’m so. so sad. that she loses this.

“an indoor privy with running water, a concept she still didn’t understand.” Who does, babe. Who does.

me, every time amaram appears: “fucking asshole. fuck off fckkkk” I just.... hiss like a cat every time his name appears on a page. I hate him. ARGH.

I spelled his name as “aramaram” and had to go correct it I was so upset he was HERE that I forgot how to spell.

“Traitors who had abandoned their gods to be free.” And they FEARED the return of their gods, before stormform and the Everstorm. They feared it--because they were not free... But...stormform isn’t freedom, and their gods are back and....history repeating itself?

Also, the fact that Gavilar took the time to learn her name is very endearing and like... Gavilar was A Good, guys. He tried so hard.

NOOPE NEVERMIND, BAD, ACTUALLY. THAT’S SO SELFISH WHAT THE HECK

“Bring back your evil, destructive, enslaving gods so that we can have our nice, honorable, fighty ones back please.” NO, THAT’S SO DISGUSTING THAT’S SO SELFISH WTH

GAVIILAARRRR. I BELIEVED IN YOU! I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU!! WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU

WAIT, so he was getting the visions before Dalinar? Did we know this already? That makes sense... it’s very Boromir/Faramir, tbh, but like... what, one died, and Honor was like “welp. guess we’ll try his bro”

wait, okay, so ...the black sphere that he gives Szeth...........what. Esh knows what it is--so it’s some kind of spren. But it’s not the angerspren/hatespren that they bond with for stormform--those are red. So what’s...this one? Voidspren? Are there voidspren? Voidspren to create voidbringers...presumably more powerful than stormform.

I AM CONCERNED.

PART ONE

okay, that map tho; after reading Edgedancer, I’m VERY CONCERNED that there’s an Oathgate to Aimia... I don’t need any more 200-cremlings-in-a-trenchcoat popping up out of nowhere, but thanks anyway

it makes sense that this book stats with Dalinar, but HOW! IS! MY! BOY! WHERE! IS! KALADIN!

Dalinar is so polite tho. saying ‘thank you’ to the Stormfather

Also ONLY SIX DAYS???? AAHH

“It had been a hardy, stubborn lot who had grown in this place.” This is Kholinar: it highstorms nine months of the year, and weeps the other three. Any food that grows here is tough and tasteless. The people that grow here are even more so. The only upsides are the pets. While other places have...cats or chickens, we have...cremlings.

(Though Lisa made a good point--are there actually cremlings?? or are all cremlings just...bits of Aimians scuttling about like spy bugs?)

“The queen had gone silent.” I...genuinely don’t trust her, and I’m more inclined to believe she’s radio silence out of a need to save her own damn skin than any other reason.

......somehow I never really thought that Odium would be light...

THE WOMAN HE LOVED

YAASS.

(I have priorities)

They’re being cute. It’s been, like, half a page and I’m just over here making big, cooing noises at them being cute. help.

OH SHIT THAT WAS QUICK

THEY FOUND SADEAS ALREADY AND I AM CONCERN

(tho, I mean...it took them six days to find the body, that’s....actually not really quick. but still.)

OH WAIT NO, OKAY, IT TOOK THEM  ONE DAY WELL SHIT

oh god

Adolin, bby. pls. don’t.... LISTEN, THE FIC I WROTE ABOUT GUILTSPREN WAS A FIC

HI TEFT I HAVE MISSED YOU BUT ALSO PLS CALM DOWN AAAHHHH

this is page frikkin 37 and I’m already dying

I’M SO SCARED OF WHAT IALAI WILL DO. SHE’S GONNA PIN THIS ON BRIDGE 4 I KNOW IT. SHE’S GONNA TRY AND I’M GONNA SCREAM

WHY IS ADOLIN HERE. KIDDO PLS. DOn’T COME BACK TO THE SCENE OF THE CRIME I’M

unrelated, but I can’t stop thinking about baby Eshonai basically damning her people to war and revenge to stop their gods from returning and Venli just like...whipping a godling out her pocket like “nvmd, we’re doing this anyway” and like. fuck Venli, tbh.

Back to current events and:

I love Palona.

“steady Adolin and impenetrable Renarin” HE LOVES HIS SONS SO MUCH I’M CRY

“certainly wouldn’t have gone so far as to kill Sadeas themselves” ABOUT THAT

I love that Urithuru has safety railings. like... throwing shade at every big space opera ever.

I still don’t know how I feel about Lopen growing his arm back...

“Our ultimate goal is the preservation of Roshar” Sorry, bud, Preservation is dead...

and also on a different planet.

AAAWWW SNAP! THIRTY-FOUR YEARS AGO! HERE WE GO!!!!

“He didn’t need Shards to intimidate.” Nah, but I bet they help.

tbqh, it’s really, really weird to think of Dalinar fighting not in Shards.

excuse you, that horse did nothing to deserve that.

heheheheh, so much for your nose, bucko

Gooooddddd, Brandon writes battle so cinematically. I want to film this. Gaaaahhh

of...of course punk!Dalinar’s horse is named Fullnight. How deliciously extra of him.

“I tried to kill you!” “from a distance! Which shows remarkably good judgement!” DALINAR, PLEASE. 

Enthusiastic ultra-Gryffindor rambo Dalinar is hilarious

It’s been 50 pages, where’s Kaladin

Sadeas in YELLOW shardplate?? who is he?

Also, ngl, I’m a lil pissed that I still have to deal with Sadeas--even if it’s young, not-quite-so-vile Sadeas. Like......he’s dead! I shouldn’t have to put up with his slimy face anymore!

“What would we do without you?” “Lose.” What an asshole. What a dudebro. I hate how much I love him.

the Thrill concerns me, tbh.

I know that we know it is of Odium, but like. It Concerns me.

THAT WAS QUICK

THE EVERSTORM TURNAROUND??? THAT WAS DISTRESSINGLY QUICK?

I’m sad Dalinar doesn’t get a little spren buddy wandering around with him at all times, because, like. Stormfather. But like. spren buddy.

Now I’m trying to picture the vast and infinite Stormfather just flitting around Dalinar’s head in meetings and making faces at Syl across the table and laughing my ass off.

oh NO not her SAFEHAND

seriously, they. are. so. cute.

“Your stubborn refusal to get seduced is making me question my feminine wiles.” HAAAAHAHA OMG, DARLINGS PLEASE

also, Dalinar, omg, give it up already, bro.

I realize there are like...ecological and climatology implications of the Weepings stopping before they are supposed to, but I can’t help but be glad that Kaladin won’t be suffering for as long as he normally would with the seasonal depression...

WHAT! WAS! THE! BOON! ...unless this is the boon. Unless Dalinar asked for the Nightwatcher to take away the pain of losing his wife and instead she took away his wife... and his punishment is something else.

in which case WHAT! WAS! THE! PUNISHMENT!

“I’d let a confused dishwasher marry us.” I realized belatedly that she meant, like...a person who washes dishes. And not a machine that washes dishes that most people on earth have in their kitchens.

Also, Dalinar and Navani really need to please stop being so adorable, I’m SO HAPPY THEY’RE GETTIN MARRIED AND THE FRIKKIN STORMFATHER IS GONNA OFFICIATE THAT’S HILARIOUS I LOVE THEM

I LOVE THAT THE WEDDING IS LIKE... HIM AND NAVANI AND THE BOYS AND SHALLAN AND A FEW OTHER MINIONS. THIS IS DELIGHTFUL. I LOVE THIS

THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT THIS I DISLIKE

Bridge Four is too important for guard duty! They’re so important! They’ve come so far!!!! I LOVE THEM!!??

she just had a wedding dress just... lying around.

god I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!

...poor Elhokar. “if only we could keep up.” boy has no confidence and no chance to learn it.

NAVANI’S FRIKKIN GLORYSPREN OMG

“What does he remember that I cannot?” Uh...your other wife, my dude. I’m sure this has something to do with how your wife died.

AAHH. HERE HE IS!!!! THE BOY!!!!! MY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nooooo. no, kaladin please. you didn’t fail. oh god, no, come on. don’t think like that.

I’m

aaahhhhh

“It felt wrong not to bear the symbol of Bridge Four.” AAAHHHHHHH

I’M

!!!!!!!!!

I’m JUST NOT OKAY

aahh, at least he was properly concerned about the Everstorm filling his spheres with...bad stuff? of some kind? I’m super glad that it didn’t, that it doesn’t, but like. At least he was concerned about it!

hello fronds, I love Syl a LOT

also: covered safehand, that’s hilarious. She’s a real grown up, now!

nooooooooooo

it can’t be all dead

they have to have

someone has to have been smart enough to get a large part of the town into shelter

Kaladin, your dad isn’t stupid, he would have. he would have tried.

(this would be way, way more distressing if I hadn’t been spoiled for the fact that Lirin and Hesina are alive...like...I’d probably be crying right now.)

“How often are you going to make me apologize for that?” Pfffft I mean.

HE GREW UP AND THEY DON’T RECOGNIZE HIM AND I’M

AAAHHH

“Are there wounded” and he just GOES because that’s where his dad would be and he just . goes. to his dad.

I’m crying?

THEY’RE CRYING I’M CRYING EVERYONE IS CRYING

THEY THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD AMARAM FUCKING TOLD THEM HE WAS DEAD AND I’M

THEY’RE

“MY SON IS ALIVE” YEAH HE IS AND HE’S AMAZING AND YOU’RE GONNA BE PROUD OF HIM OH

I’M

AAHHHHHH

I really hate Amaram. A lot.

his mom is a good. and she just keeps her hand on his shoulder like protectiveness and like reassurance that he’s still there and I’m. aaaAAAHH

“For now, he just wanted to be here with them.” GOOD. LET THE BOY REST. LET HIM EAT SOUP AND REST.

“The wrong-way highstorm” I mean...not wrong

“They never got to meet Captain Kaladin” aaAAHHH

I HAVE A LOT OF EMOTIONS ABOUT INCARNATIONS OF HUMANS AND I’M

this is a lot

LIRIN OFFERING TO BUY THE WRIT OF SLAVERY IS A LOT I’M JUST

crying

“Perhaps it was time to stop letting the rain dictate his mood. He couldn’t banish the seed of darkness inside him, but Stormfather, he didn’t need to let it rule him either.”

I...have a lot of feelings about Kaladin.

And I have a lot of feelings about how Kaladin and his depression interact and about how he deals with it. And how he’s seen the worst in himself and promised to never let it get that bad again. And how he’s seen that even though it’s a part of himself that he has to keep fighting, keep dealing with, keep understanding, it doesn’t have to be the only thing in him, the only thing in his life, the only part of him that matters. He can have other parts, other important bits of him and his personality. He might always have bad days, but that doesn’t have to be the majority of them. Not if he chooses to be stronger, to try to get better. There’s always going to be depression, but that doesn’t mean he can’t be other things.

It took me a longass time to come to that same realization and I just...am really, really... proud of him? and of myself? and of anyone who has depression who thinks the same way we do? and though I’ve found it to be a smidge disconcerting to have your own personal thought processes spelled out on paper by someone who isn’t you, there’s a comfort in that...I’m not the only one who feels like this, who has these ideas, who makes these decisions about my depression.

Anyway, I really, really love Kaladin and I’m. emotional . and I’m. “He didn’t need to let it rule him either.” No. We don’t. We can deal.

ANYWAY I’M EMOTIONAL ABOUT KALADIN AND IN OTHER NEWS WATER IS WET, FIRE IS HOT, AND THE WORLD IS ROUND.

WAIT. Did Syl.....was she aiming for someone else? “distant yet demanding”. Who else...was she gonna bond with. before Kaladin? My first instinct is Tien, but that...doesn’t fit. One of his men? in his squad? Or before that, Hesina maybe? I’m? ...surely not Lirin...... he’s not. enough.

god, his first thought is that Adolin would be disappointed in fashion heheheheh I love these boys. becoming friends. maybe. hopefully.

KAL PUNCHING ROSHONE IS A++ 100% GRADE A GOOD SHIT

GOD BLESS

AAAAAAHHHHHHH

“That was for my friend Moash” I’M!!!!!!!!!!!! EMOTIONAL!!!! ABOUT MY BOYS!!! AND THEIR FRIENDSHIP!!!!! PERSISTING EVEN THOUGH BAD DECISIONS!!!!

Kaladin’s stubborn refusal to give up on people is. A Lot. EVeRYTHING IS A LOT. THIS IS A LOT

“and for the first time in a long, long while, he was happy with that person.” THAT’S CAUSE YOU’RE A GOOD PERSON THE BEST PERSON AAAHHH

SUMMONING SYL AND “ANY QUESTIONS” AND OHHH MY GOD. that shit’s hot. I’m. hhnnnggggggg

“until he had enough stormlight to fly home.” home. I mean, we knew that “home” wasn’t Hearthstone anymore, but. Dalinar is home. The warcamps, Urithuru. Bridge Four. I...I am so proud of how far Kaladin has come.

“I don’t like the idea of swinging you around, smashing you into things.” “Firstly, I don’t smash into things. I am an elegant and graceful weapon.” HI, I LOVE SYL A LOT

GET IT, LARAL

HECK YE

“That’s a girl I was never going to marry, no matter what happened.” “I like her.” “You would.” I LIKE HER TOO SHE’S STRONG AND CAPABEL AND DON’T NEED NO MAN. GET IT, GIIIRRLL!!!!

I love that Roshar has a Hippocratic oath equivalent. I also have mixed feelings on Lirin’s incredibly strict adherence to his Hippocratic oath equivalent. like..yeah, Do No Harm is one thing. But being self-righteous about it to the point of not wanting your son to fight evil monsters from the void? Take a chill pill, my dude.

NAVANI SPANREEDING HIM PERSONALLY IS A LOT

also, I really have strong feelings about Dalinar generally addressing Kaladin as “soldier” and the responding “Sir.” I know they had a long talk about chain of command, but it’s just. so satisfying that it’s still going.

“Send us a glyph each evening to know you are safe.” GOOD DAD IS WORRIED ABOUT HIS SON AND I’M EMOTIONAL

AAAHHHHH HIS VERY FIRST INSTINCT IS TO HOLD HIS BABY BROTHER I’M!!! KALADIN IS SO GOOD AND LOVING AND WONDERFUL!!!

guys, I don’t know if you know this about me, but I really love Kaladin.

guys, I don’t know if you know this about me, bUT I REALLY LOVE KALADIN.

[mistralrunner]

Running Reads Oathbringer: Part 1, sort of

In part because for once I’m the first of my close friends to read this book and I can’t just text all my reactions to them like I used to, and in part cause it’d be interesting, I decided to quasi-liveblog my reading of Oathbringer. Stuff will be tagged with “oathbringer spoilers” and hidden under a readmore.

After my crazy adventure to actually get a book that consisted of running to five different bookstores, I was far too engrossed and not thinking of liveblogging at all, and then later wrote down some thoughts on the earlier chapters cause it felt weird to just start things partway through the book. So this portion has a lot of gaps and may be a tad out of order. 

Spoilers for pages 1-326 below.

Yesss Eshonai one of my two predictions for prologue character was right (the other being Amaram who I hate but would also give some insight into Gavilar's plans since they seemed in cahoots)

Aww little Eshonai she did not deserve all the awfulness

I'm not surprised about Gavilar's horrible plan. Either Amaram had taken things too far or you two really were in line with the whole return the ancient gods and wars given Amaram's "Gavilar we've done it". I see it is the latter. I really don't feel bad about you being assassinated.

Szeth where did you hide that black sphere and is it still there

Wow Sanderson wow. You actually didn't break the pattern of books being named after books. So sneaky.

There is a dragon in that image there why is there a dragon stop teasing us

Love how the lion is a mythological creature on par with dragons

The Nine? Odium has Nazgul?

Also golden light is not an aesthetic I had considered for the big bad but it's working

I feel like Odium’s Champion should be someone familiar to the main cast cause if I was a big bad I know that would hurt more. Albeit it would come with the risk of said familiar person turning on me.

Everyone but Dalinar re: Sadeas: He had it coming. He had it coming. He only had himself to blame

I can't believe they're getting married by the Stormfather that sounds like a crackfic but works

Wait Jasnah wrote Oathbringer didn't she if so aaaaaaa

Where is my Kaladin pov chapter

Whereeeeee

Where is it

Finally

(This is honestly why I stayed up so late that night I was just waiting for the Kaladin chapter and then by the time I got to it I was far enough in the book and it was too late)

I’m glad Kaladin isn't entirely lighteyed. Like that part of his identity isn’t entirely torn from him

FAMILY REUNION AT LAST THANK YOU

Kaladin deserves time sipping soup protected by his family

Huh Laral also has the perfectly symmetrical name also she's cool

Ahhh he has another brother and he’s crying

I like Queen Fen

No don't trust Taravangian Dalinar every storming book you trust someone and regret it why

I want to like Malata though

Okay how Dalinar got Oathbringer is really messed up. Really Dalinar.

But I do like the bookends of him taking Oathbringer via bloodshed and giving it up to save lives

Girl who looked up has white hair I feel like that's significant. Hoid has white hair. 

I love this so much

Just the ridiculousness of Kaladin being a fruit seller and the construction of everything and Pattern being delighted

The THEATER

A little sad cause this might take the place of storytime with Hoid but this is so good

The whole wall actually there to keep out humans...hmmm...I have a fondness for stories that hold truths otherwise lost to history

Musicspren with Ryshadium?

Interesting.

Fantasy Skype!

I am concerned about Shallan's Identity

Also reminds me of Shai and her stamps but Shai was more mentally stable

Bridge Four without Kaladin is weird but I'm so proud of them

I love Lyn simply because named scout character please make her a squire we need a lady Windrunner

HAHA Re-Shepir I recognize that name cause of my reread with notes

This is great party composition thank you Renarin for healing Bridge Four

How to train/scare your Unmade

Aww Kaladin, helping and training a party wherever he goes

There was an epigraph from WoK I think about their homes becoming ours

Ah yes, thank you notes, “...their homes become our dens, their lands are now our farms! And they shall burn, as we once did, in a place that is hollow and forlorn“

Not sure about the second half, but it does feel like the first fits

Kind of wanted to see this drawn out longer so we could see more of the Parshmen society and possibly change things but Fused is probably bad news

They can fly???!??!

KALADIN STORMBLESSED

Just aaaa when you love your favorite even more just helping people and then the wind and asaaaaaaandofbefonfgenpvrpvrmpmrv

Jasnah's changed? I am more concerned

The Unmade are possibly once human? Hey Shallan they're called the Unmade oh god they really are Cosmere Nazgul

Aww Shallan feels like a real adult I wish I felt that way

I do like the idea of ancient horrors just becoming an accepted part of the world and overlooked. Like the Thrill

You know the whole some spren are on Odium's side makes people assuming the talking spren are Voidbringers less ridiculous

Covering up the bottom of the page cause I don't want to accidentally glance there cause something big has to happen to end this part

JAKEJRRKFFLYRKKTFKFK

JASNAHHHHHHHHHHH

[charjo]

Fictional favorites tag game! I was tagged by @aplpaca (forever ago, sorry about that) thank you <3

(pass on to twenty mutuals.)

1. What is your MBTI? INFJ, last time I checked.

2. What is your Hogwarts House? Hufflepuff!

3. Are you a book person or a TV person? They both have their advantages/disadvantages. I can focus better on TV shows rn but i kinda feel like TV shows aren’t living up to their hype nowadays.

4. What is your favorite book series? Cosmere. Cosmere Cosmere Cosmere. Within the Cosmere, Mistborn, probably. actually a lot of the answers for these are gonna be really Cosmere-centric bc that’s my Thing rn

5. What is your favorite TV series/anime? Leverage! I don’t really watch anime.

6. Which fantasy universe would you most like to live in? Cosmere.

7. Favorite character ever: my kneejerk reaction is Vin. because I love Vin. but I love a lot of characters 

8. Character you would like to personally slap in the face: I would suplex Chaos (Leverage) at any given point in time. also Draco Malfoy

9. Character you would like to personally murder: Zane (Mistborn). I would die very quickly but I’d like to at least try... and Amaram. I’d say Sadeas but Adolin did that for me already. lol

10. Character you would gladly intern under: so many. Vin, Sazed, Rey, Eliot Spencer, Kaladin, Rosa Diaz...

11. Character you would totally have tea with: don’t drink tea but I’d like to have a nice chat with Sazed. or Zenyatta. 

12. Character that you feel really needs a hug: all of them except the ones i don’t like

13. Character you love that you would probably hate irl: Ezekiel Jones, from the Librarians. he’s hilarious but I feel like I’d want to punch him if I ever met him without context

14. Character you would realistically be friends with irl: maybe Shallan? I become friends with many witty/sarcastic people, often by accident

15. First character you had a crush on (if any): don’t really get crushes on fictional people, just kind of fixations for a bit

16. Favorite ships: Shakadolin, ReyFinnPoe, Vinlend, Lenily... probably a bunch more but those are the ones that immediately come to mind

17. Series (TV/book) that you feel ended terribly: couldn’t even finish Allegiant, wasn’t super happy with the ending of Harry Potter. 

18. Series (TV/book) that had so much potential but was actually an epic disaster: haven’t watched Iron Fist for obvious reasons but boyyy howdy. Doctor Strange had some great visual effects in the trailer but :/

19. Worst book/movie/TV show you’ve ever read/seen: I did Not like the Giver. read it in elementary school. didn’t like Flowers for Algernon much. Waterland is just kind of strange. other than that I’ve probably repressed the memories of the not great things I have read/watched

20. Favorite book from your childhood: I memorized The Very Hungry Caterpillar at two years old so I could pretend I was reading it to myself. somewhere from 8-10 years old I really loved Grimm’s Fairy Tales. 

21. 3 Favorite Tropes: 'give up all your weapons’ *three minutes of emptying out weapons from every conceivable and inconceivable place where one could hide a weapon*; angry smaller person + p chill taller person; the quiet/nonthreatening person suddenly busts out an awesome sequence, destroying the expectations of the people around them (esp if i don’t see it coming)

22. 3 Most Hated Tropes: i frickin hate love triangles they’re so overdone and overused... I’m so tired of them. polyamory ftw. really don’t like the ‘catty girls that hate each other at first sight’ thing either. also the ‘character dies/character comes back to life’ is just overdone at this point. deaths really don’t mean as much when you know they could be/will be resurrected

23. Scariest thing you’ve ever watched/read: I don’t read/watch a lot of horror/scary stuff, but I tried reading Jurassic Park when I was around eight. got super shaken up about the dinosaurs eating the baby in the first few pages. haven’t picked it up since. love dinosaurs tho.

24. Anything you’d like to recommend? Cosmere (!!!!!!)

25. Would you like any recommendations? HECK FRICKIN YES PLEASE! I can’t promise I’ll get around to reading them in this decade but I love getting recs. no smut please tho

i don’t have that many mutuals so a lot of y’all are getting tagged. @heyyoufriendthere, @call-me-tears, @lyliacs, @annecasap, @theothertardis, @lifelongpotterhead, @idontknownothin, @fenric25, @raggedyradiant, @kingkilling-and-stormlight, @gyornhrathen, @shadowsofselfdoubt, @aurigeae, @the-awkward-math-writer, @spooperheroes-are-my-life, @nerdinadisguse, @hrebekka, @atium, @tchallastoebeans, @endlessvegetables

ik i don’t interact much with y’all (even though you’re lovely people) so feel free to ignore this if you’d like!

[aeonarin]

Fictional favorites: Cosmere edition.

So I saw this tagging game somewhere on my feed, and because I’m absoluty obsessed with Cosmere lately (I mean, like, almost a year already) I literally could not think of any other characters while going through with it in my mind. So I decided to make a version entirely Cosmere-ic. 

About me:

MBTI: INFJ

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw

Book person or TV person: Books

Favorite book series: Stromlight Archive

Favorite TV series/anime: Hmm. Dunno. Jessica Jones? Doctor Who? Dark matter? 

And now:

Fantasy universe you would most like to live in: Cosmere, duuh. 

Favorite character ever: Kaladin

Character you would like to personally slap in the face: Shallan. I cannot explain. She just makes annoying decisions all the time. 

Character you would like to personally murder: Sadeas. Amaram is next :P 

Character you would gladly intern under: Jasnah!

Character you would totally have tea with: Wayne. Although he would probably swap teacups with an old newspaper. 

Character that you feel really needs a hug: Kaladin. I mean, that is why I love him. I have a thing for depressed people. 

Character you love that you would probably hate irl: Kelsier.

Character you would realistically be friends with irl: Sarene.

First character you had a crush on (if any): Kaladin. I’m getting repetitive, innit? 

Favorite ship: There’s one ship from White Sand that is not canon yet, so I’ll just pick another favourite. Siri + Susebron. Siribron? I guess. 

Series that you feel ended terribly: There is literally no series in Cosmere that would apply. 

Series that had so much potential but was actually an epic disaster: IMHO, White Sand the graphic novel is pretty sad. 

3 favorite tropes: The bad guys actually wanted to do something good; magic has rules and world is plausible; female characters can be both badasses and accomplished mothers/traditionally feminine figures. 

3 most hated tropes: Protagonist is good at everything; Protagonist is so rainbow-barfingly good that they don’t kill; the bad guys get proselytised to the good side. 

I’d love to see more character questions like that, there are more Cosmere characters I love, so feel free flood me with them. 

[kogiopsis]

I thought you'd want to know my brain is currently trying to do a Disney Hercules AU with Renarin as Hercules and Kaladin as Megara thanks to your tags. (!!! thank you for loving my things)

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME UPSET ABOUT RENARIN KHOLIN AGAIN AND ON A REGULAR BASIS

also oh my god.  does that make Sadeas Hades?  is the centaur Amaram?  I like this.  do carry on.

[isdalinarhot]

okok this is not the state i wanted to make this post in (i wanted to make it while sober so i could make it sound respectable to a normal audience) but. yesterday i got a lot of tags on my teftdeadwifeposting like. when is there going to be a cosmere WOMAN who is having female manpain about the loss of her HUSBAND! and i really hate to say this but its already happened. its ialai. ialai grieves torol (god it feels so gross calling him torol. but they have the same last names so). she takes over amarams fail secret society to do secret society things because its what sadeas would have wanted, apparently. she drinks wine all day in her sad little shattered plains cave. she loses a significant amount of weight. nobody else cares that sadeas died. but ialai cares. ialai cares so goddamn much. and shes doing her best to scheme and plot her way to doing something concrete. but she dies before she can do this. anyway the sadeases are such a functional m/f couple which you would not expect when 50% of your relationship is sadeas

[isdalinarhot]

stormlight ship/character interaction/whatever as drinks masterlist

(note: bolded are the tags i have actually used on this blog for blacklisting purposes. also credit to jess my friend jess who does not use tumblr anymore for like half of these. also im using x or / instead of & but know that when i am saying these i mean romantic sexual platonic complicated or anything of that nature. ok anyway)

kaladin/adolin: shampoo/chocolate milk

adolin x shallan: hot chocolate

kaladin/adolin/shallan: hot chocolate milk

kaladin/elhokar: room temperature milk

elhokar x aesudan: frozen milk

dalinar/kaladin: chunky milk

kaladin/moash: melted iced coffee

moash/elhokar: half cooked beef puree

sadeas/dalinar: purple dragon jungle juice

sadeas x ialai: bloody mary at 10 in the morning

sadeas/gavilar: battery acid with an umbrella in it

sadeas x navani: laundry detergent

gavilar x navani: really shitty craft beer

dalinar x navani: pulpy drippy orange juice

dalinar x evi: piss

gavilar x evi: antifreeze

ialai/navani: two and a half glasses of wine

ialai/navani/evi: three and a half glasses of wine

navani/evi: chamomile tea

raboniel/navani: strawberry staircase to heaven

sadeas/amaram: listerine

sadeas/dalinar/navani: screwdriver

dalinar/sadeas/ialai: absinthe